fresh out of my new breadmaker :)

count the blessings

There are a few not-so-light things on my mind, but I am confidant that I have been receiving quite a few blessings recently, in addition to the ones I take for granted most of the time.

My husband got his FSA certificate a week ago, which is probably the most valuable paper you can get if you are an actuary. I prayed for him the night before he gave his presentation. And God answered it. My husband had not done public speaking before, and his English is not so great. But he told me that on his way to the stage there was this strange calmness and confidance in him. And everything went really well.

One of my paper got accepted by the best journal in fluid mechanics. During my Ph.D. I never dreamt of this day that I would get anything published in that journal. Yet it is happening. I seriously don't think I deserve it.

My baby kicks me everyday now, which is so reassuring. Maybe the day will come soon when I complain about it. But now I am enjoying his every mysterious movement. I call it mysterious, because I have no idea what his position is. :)

I am also grateful for many other things. My husband and my mom get along well. The winter has been warm. God has given me a life of abundance. I am picking up my appetite. I have been making different kinds of food and most of them were success. We have a group of friends here as well. Holidays don't feel bad any more.

a good day

Rachel, Ciara and I had a really good 2-hour accountability group in the early afternoon. We talked about our relationships with others and with God. I was able to share some of my recent struggles with them.

After I went back to school, Brian and I met for a bit and talked about prayers. He made a few comments that were helpful to resolve my concerns on my prayer life. And it was good to see him again before the holidays.

Then Bhramara informed me over G-chat all the cheering news of the people we both know. We also shared briefly what we had been up to.

Overall, it has been a non-productive but spiritually good day.

the extra pound in me

Today marks the day that the baby weighs about a pound, well, theoretically. So no more ounces.

I am surprised by how fast the time seems to pass. Don't remind me of the time when I couldn't even take water in. Yeah, short memory is the main reason why women have more than one kids.

I am also surprised by how I feel ready for the baby to come. At least for right now.

I think the thing I expect the most is the love I would experience. It would help me understand more the love God has for me.

anxious anxious

I stayed awake half of the time last night due to anxiety. I am still feeling overwhelmed by all the things I need to deal with.

Can't wait to see the girls tonight.