# 62

There was a black-out an hour ago in our building.

Although the power was back seconds after, I thought it was a sign for me to take a break. So I sneaked out and had another icecream sandwich.

The water was pouring from the sky. It has been long since I walked outside in heavy rain last time. I felt the desire to do that. However, I used an umbrella so that people wouldn't think I was too odd. Compromises.

Last Sunday I finally watched "Office Space", which I borrowed from Brian and have kept at my aparment forever.

Anyway, I felt these days I have been acting like Peter. It's some sort of illusional happiness. I know it won't last long, or it will stop as soon as my boss gets back.

----------This is the depressing dividing line----------

Tonight the frustration started to hit me again, because in reality I have so many things to finish while I don't have enough time and I have no desire to do either of them. A conference paper is due on this Thursday, but I am far from getting the draft ready.

I told my parents that I really don't want to go on like this anymore and that I hope I can quit right away.

My mom said "then go home with us", like it's not a big deal at all.

"What if I can't find a job?!" I asked.

"Oh, you will find a job anyway." My mom said.

It was such a big comfort to me. Although they knew I won't be a quitter, they always have a way to remind me that all they want is for me to be happy.

Thanks, mom and dad, for your support and for knowing me so well.